The Divided Mind; When I'm Beside Myself

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The Problem With Me, Myself and I; the Fractured Mind

No doubt about it, the mind is an impressive piece of software. It is reported to be made up of a hundred billion neurons all of which manage memory, reason, emotions, sensations, and coordination. Likewise it is proficient at gathering, sorting and filing information away that lets it come to a conclusion regarding self (self awareness). The mind also makes choices (contracts) that become the basis for why we remain devoted and committed to a particular behavior or task. As an example:

• I made a contract (I agreed) to set my body, soul, and spirit to the task of learning to ride a bike and this represented a new function in my life.

• I made another contract (I agreed) to set my body, soul, and spirit to the task of learning to drive a car and this represented another function in my life.

These learned responses become second nature to us and once a task is filed away it can then be called into service as the need arises. Most every human endeavor follows this elementary means of processing. From our earliest days of infancy, to the routines we establish at age eighty; we have chosen to respond in predetermined ways.

These learned responses can also overlap. While driving the car, we can be eating a sandwich and talking to a passenger; all the while we are still following many rules of the road and consciously mapping out a course towards our next destination. We refer to this as “multitasking” and it allows various independent responses to come together to accomplish a single goal.

This also applies to how we deal with pressures in life. As issues challenge us we learn to cope by confronting, complying with or getting out of the way of trouble. Such responses also get filed away in the mind and heart to be called upon another day.

• I made a contract (I agreed) to set my body, soul, and spirit to the task of confronting, complying with or getting out of the way of trouble; and this represented a new function in my life.

In a broader sense, this can also explain how we have been molded to cope with difficult human exchanges. Since man’s fallen nature often dominates in physical, intellectual, emotional and spiritual ways we tend to create skills for dealing with each type of intrusion. Many of these encounters create defense mechanisms within us that get called into service when the need arises.

• I made a contract (I agreed) to set my body, soul, and spirit to the task of dealing with a dominant or abusive person and this represented a new function in my life.

These responses represent a “compartmentalized” or “fractured” way of coping in life. Essentially we call upon different parts of our person to deal with interactions with the outside world. It’s not necessarily wrong to rely upon such skills, but it can cause us to short circuit at times. You see, in a perfect world this ability is a healthy part of daily living. However in a fallen world it requires that we spend a lot of our time preserving and protecting self.

• Long ago I once made a contract to engage in a behavior designed to preserve, protect, or defend me against some injustice; however I now can’t seem to turn it off!

You may also benefit in seeing how the fractured condition is a behavior suspended in time. If at an early age we reacted to an event or an uncommon experience then a young mind retains that memory for us. For this reason we may find ourselves not always responding or reacting as an adult. At those times of vulnerability I suggest asking a very simple question;

“How old do I feel?”

When we find ourselves reacting in ways that are immature, or age inappropriate, it suggests that at a specific time in life we were forced to fracture. Here’s an example of time standing still that you may be able to relate to.

Let’s say that thirty years ago a heated disagreement broke out between you and a friend and you haven’t seen them since. When you think back on this person have they ever changed? The most common response is “no”, because your only frame of reference is thirty years old. Hence they look the same, they haven’t ever aged and they are still a jerk! Subsequently you may still find your heart pounding and many of your defense mechanisms reengaging.

A young fractured response can manifest in all sorts of ways and are fairly easy to spot. In some cases:

• We can’t think or react without extra instruction from others.
• We can’t comprehend adult processes or procedures.
• We can’t comprehend new ideas or concepts.
• We may remain in a continuous state of play.
• We jump into old relationship dynamics with old friends.
• We interact with others in a child like manner.
• We engage in arguments and conflicts in a child like manner.
• We are obsessive and compulsive.
• We are quick to agree, but do the opposite.
• We have a short attention span.
• We are rebellious or overly compliant.
• We have young anxiety or wield a short fuse.

Feeling owned or feeling undone when we step into certain surroundings is also a sign that we remain stuck in a young pre-programmed holding pattern. Conversations or activities can be healthy and quite mature on most levels, but also contain a young element of dialog or mannerism. Ever seen a grown man throw a temper tantrum? It’s not a pretty sight!

It is also possible to see ourselves, or see others, transition from the adult to a young fracture and then back to the adult in a single conversation. The fluctuation between the adult and a young response is facilitated by something we call a “Trigger”.

Triggers

Have you ever heard the story about Pavlov’s Dog? Ivan Pavlov was a Russian scientist from the early 20th century. He studied how conditioning could change or initiate physical responses. He observed that his dog would begin to salivate when he saw food. So he began ringing a bell every time he would feed his dog. The result was that if the bell was rung in the absence of the food, the dog would still be moved to salivate. This was the dog’s learned response.

Of course we shouldn’t hope to be compared to the family pet, yet as we participate in any number of daily functions we can react to our own proverbial bells. Life is filled with many triggers that draw to the surface old preprogrammed responses. In many respects we hear the bell, which could be anything from a smell, a sound (music), a touch, a phrase, a visual scene, or a person’s comment or advance. At those times the trigger makes us think back to a moment in time where we were once made vulnerable. Thus in the midst of these moments it can abruptly draw to the surface old feelings and young personalities.

The Foremost Authority

If various events in life get us to react so strongly, then who has been allowed to be in charge? Since past exchanges with others have caused us to initially react in negative ways then they represent a force or a perceived authority which still rules in our behavior.

Many of these “authorities” once gained position in our lives by violating our personal space or security. They were able to create altercations, shock our system, overload our senses, or impose upon us some form of dominance. Our response to their advances was to raise up a suitable fractured defense. When does our defensive posture manifest?

• When we encounter the original authority.

• When we think about the original authority.

• When another person reminds us of our dominant authority.

• When another person responds in the same abusive way.

Furthermore a foremost authority doesn’t necessarily have to be a person. At an early age I was attacked by a dog (Not Pavlov’s) and that animal set the pace for how I would respond to most dogs in the future. When does my fractured response manifest?

• When I encounter the original dog that bit me.

• When I think about the dog that bit me.

• When another dog reminds me of my dominant authority.

• When another dog tries to bite me.

Natures Dominance

Things of the earth can also have an impact upon our lives. If a tree branch were to fall on our head then we would likely create an aversion to sitting under trees. Most opposition to creation creates a similar reaction. When does our cautious fracture manifest?

• When another inanimate object violates our space.

• When we think about a previous encounter with creation.

• When another event reminds us of our violation.

• When an unrelated event also violates us in a similar fashion.

Spiritual Dominance

Reactions to a foremost authority are also not always based on flesh and blood. If a spiritual encounter was allowed to violate our space then it can also create a fractured response in us. Here are some common encounters we have had with spiritual powers; that taught us how to react.

• The fall – An exchange was made between Adam and Eve and the Serpent in the garden, which now introduces mankind to this fallen spiritual influence.

• Family – A child adapts to its spiritual environment from birth. Hence we get used to certain exchanges with familiar, generational and territorial powers.
• Our sin nature – When we intentionally sin, we are inviting a seducing spirit to set up shop (1 Timothy 4:1).
• Society – Spiritual exchanges arise as we encounter people and organizations.
• School – Taught us to be secular in our thoughts and actions which add spiritual support.
• Business and sales – Often utilize spiritual seduction to seal a deal.
• Media – Represents a playground for our imaginations and adds its own form of spiritual seduction.
• Cultural Norms – Each culture carries its own form of belief, faith and spiritual subservience.
• Religion – Can also open the door to unhealthy spiritual exchanges that impose themselves upon us.
• Our own worldly curiosity regarding spiritual things.

All of these influences taught us how to personally draw near or push away from spiritual worlds. Once they impact our lives we condition ourselves to accept or reject their ongoing intrusion.

• I made a contract (I agreed) to set body, soul, and spirit to the task of coping with a dominant spiritual influence and this represented a new reaction in my life.

Let me offer an example of a spiritual connection;

In my early years I grew up in southern California, which carries its own spiritual territorial rule. The combination of my willful attempts at mischief coupled with spiritual support added certain struggles to my life. This fed troubles at home and troubles at school. If this spiritual combination had continued to directly influence me I’m sure I could have become a real handful for society. Yet my parents decided to move us out of the state and surprisingly many of these struggles went away. My whole demeanor changed, because I was no longer surrounded by the same temptations and spiritual support.

Thirty five years later I had a chance to go back and visit my old stomping grounds. To my surprise I found myself confronted by old spiritual connection and a desire to do something mischievous. Of course I was quickly able to take these thoughts and feelings captive and deal with them in Jesus. However it showed me how old spiritual contracts can remain in place and lay dormant for years. When does this fractured state manifest?

• When I encounter the original territory that supported my mischief.

• When I think about that original spiritual territory and the games I once played.

• When another spirit reminds me of a familiar past.

• When another person carries that same spirit and desire for being mischievous.

An Abusive Tag Team

What this boils down to is life is full of both natural and spiritual components that have been allowed to take ownership of our minds and hearts. Once these dual components are set in place we often bow to their influences well into adulthood.

An interesting thing happened this last summer as I was riding my bike. As some of you may have experienced for yourself, there are times that sharing the road with motorists can unravel your nerves. I have often had to deal with things being thrown at me, the torment of honking horns and passengers yelling at me as they passed by.

After years of being set on edge by these occurrences, I finally went to God and asked for some relief. In short order God prompted me to consider that my early years of riding my bike had been subject to an environment of abuse and ridicule. He was saying that at the time I learned to ride my bike, I was so accepting of this abusive treatment that I invited it onto my life as a form of young identity.

Where did this abuse come from?

My early years had been molded by family and friends and these relationships imposed upon me certain limitations. Though we desire that all our exchanges are prosperous, healthy and inspiring, the truth is there are no perfect people and none of us have escaped the effects of the past.

What God was showing me was that my perceptions of life were still very young when riding my bike. Whenever I jumped on my bike I was reengaging life based on the performance of a five year old. This included an interaction with a spiritual realm which supported many of my childhood troubles. It was like having a spiritual sign on my back that said, “Kick Me;” and many did.

That child was still present in my actions and as long as I placed faith in his young ability to ride, I was going to have to relive certain human and spiritual frustrations along the way.

Once again; God prompted me to take the bike riding out of the hands of the 5 year old and bring it into the present truth and reality of being a mature man in Christ. A short prayer was all that I needed in order to allow God to adjust my maturity level.

From that day on I haven’t had any more trouble on the road.

Immature Traps

Keep in mind fractures don’t always appear at the first sign of trouble. There is still an opportunity to handle situations in life by the strength and wisdom of our adult self. However there comes a tipping point where just the right amount of stress, pressure or insecurity makes us want to rely upon someone else to save the day. If we frequent these volatile moments too often we simply find it easier to jump into a fractured way of coping.

These past responses don’t afford us the benefit of experiencing newness of life. So how do we gain freedom in Christ?

When we consider the hall marks of salvation we know that Jesus went to the Cross for us two thousand years ago. Besides redeeming us by His shed blood we were also made a new creation. However if we find ourselves being influenced once again by the pull of the world we need away to break those bad habits. This is where the Cross becomes for us away of escape. You see, unbeknownst to many Christians, it wasn’t only Jesus that died on the Cross; it was also the place of our death. No, we didn’t die physically; instead Jesus supernaturally invited us into His own death so that we could come to know His life.

2 Corinthians 5:14-15 For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.

In this way everything that once bound us to the fall or made us improperly relate to the world can get moved out of the way. Even today there is no limit as to how many ways our lives can be changed at the Cross of Christ. This process can be summed up in one simple statement:

Jesus died for your redemption; but you died with Christ to gain transformation.

Romans 6:4 We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.

Simply stated, if we don’t allow Jesus’ death, burial and resurrection to resonate within our faith, then there is nothing that can properly carry us on into God’s abundant life. Paul expounds upon this very subject by saying:

Romans 8:11-14 And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you. Therefore, brothers and sisters, we have an obligation—but it is not to the flesh, to live according to it. For if you live according to the flesh, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live. For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God.

Notice he says “misdeeds of the body”; what we are dealing with is bad behavior that lays hold of us in body, soul and spirit and moves us to feed fallen wants and desires. Situations of life that at one time we thought might be good for us became a stronghold in our mind and heart. However now that we know better these things can all be resolved as we trust the Holy Spirit at the Cross. At the Cross He renews the mind and at the same time severs our unhealthy ties with flesh, the world and the Devil. All that is requires us is a willingness to ask for the freedom that is available in Jesus. Its not much different for how we once asked for salvation.

Application

Jesus, on my behalf;

• By your Holy Spirit and at the Cross resolve this fractured behavior that keeps getting me into trouble (Name it)
• By your Holy Spirit and at the Cross resolve where my body, soul, spirit, mind, will, emotions, conscience and subconscious, sexuality, communication skills and gender get moved to do wrong by this fracture.
• By your Holy Spirit and at the Cross resolve where I am held captive to the will of outside influences, such as men, organizations and a demonic realm (name them) which cause me to fracture and be triggered in this way.
• And Judge by the Cross the spiritual realm associated with these issues.

Jesus, You are the resurrection power that now saves me and makes me new.

In the days ahead you can trust that the Holy Spirit will begin to reveal fractured forms of behavior that you don’t need anymore in order to live a happy and healthy life.

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