A Month Later... the News

Yeah, I know… it’s been awfully quiet here lately, eh?

I’ve been either fatigued, frazzled trying to get things done, fried after getting done what little I have, or dreading the consequences of my lacking energy for so long and falling so far behind.

Good news-? (Yes! Let’s!)

The migraines are letting go. Now I have maybe 1 or 2 days a week of migraines, as opposed to barely 1 day a week without. Mentally, I’m not as slow-witted and I’m starting to feel like myself again, which is HUGE. It’s like the “me” I know disappears during migraine trains, so I can’t connect to myself. But my SELF is returning, slowly but surely, and I’m waking up and smelling the world again.

Bad news?

In the interim, my life has diminished considerably and my motivation and willpower is just… GONE. I suspect it, too, shall return gradually, but I’m not very happy dealing with the wreck of what the last 4 months have wrought.

Worst news?

I can’t even use my imagination these days, which is my number one coping device to stave off boredom and stay mentally and emotionally engaged when my life is so limited. THAT puppy better return, let me tell you!

Better news?

I now have some medication saved up for the next migraine, and my dose is being upped so that it will take 1.5 pills instead of 3 to bring relief, and the more-precious-than-solid-gold pills won’t run out on me. I plan to get some every month and stock up for the next bought of long-Covid. I’m also masking more because I can’t afford to keep getting Covid once a year like I have been! Twice I got it at restaurants (where you have to take off your mask to eat) and once at the doctor’s office waiting room! Now at least I have a plan to tackle things for the next time. I have to be careful not to over use the medication because it will stop working, so being conservative is smart– BUT! I don’t have to lose weeks and weeks of life now for the forseeable future.

The BEST news–? I finally became the new Payee for my sister, so my mother can’t keep stealing my sister’s money and my sister can have the internet. I got a new account set up for that and direct deposit and the whole thing, done so that I can keep track as easily as possible even if I’m not doing my best mentally or physically.

I also planned a special Sowin weekend for myself, Amara, and Cat to help make up for nearly 6 months of no lessons or rituals!

Apologies for disappearing. It’s been a hell of a summer I tell you.