How do I overcome my railway Groucho Marx problem?

“I Don’t Want to Belong to Any Club That Will Accept Me as a Member” Groucho Marx is supposed to have said.

And I have come to the view that I am facing something similar in my railway work.

“Why would any company in the railway sector consider me to work for them, as there’s nothing I know they don’t know already” could be how to phrase it. And it is some sort of variant of imposter syndrome, and I am not completely sure what to do about it, but at the end of this post I at least outline a partial solution.

The heart of the matter is that, even now, almost four years into all my work about #CrossBorderRail, the Channel Tunnel and night trains, I still feel like an outsider to this railway business, and struggle to find my place within it. But I know I have to change my railway work somehow, as I cannot keep on crowd funding small projects as I have been doing until now (and #CrossBorderRail cannot continue anyway as there are no more borders to go to), but what work to look for and from whom still largely fails me.

“You must get calls from people wanting to employ you all the time!” someone said to me at an event last month – and I don’t know who was more shocked, me for someone thinking that, or the person who said it with my response that was that no, that never happens.

And I know in my own head why it does not happen. For I am reluctant to look, and with some justification. And I have given the public impression – to most people anyway – that I am not even looking.

An example of this issue in my own head: in November I published the final report of my #CrossChannelRail project. At one level this is one of the most comprehensive pieces of analysis about the future of operations through the Channel Tunnel available in public. But at another level there is nothing remarkable in it – all I did was go and do some digging, and then write it all up, and the work was crowd funded. If any company wanting to run Channel Tunnel services does not know all of what I have put in my report, I tell myself, that company must be dysfunctional. Why would any company learn something from me, some crowd funded lay person outsider?

The same sort of issue crops up across the board. I might have written a lot about the future of night trains, and can even write coherent columns about that, but would I have anything to offer a night train company? I doubt it – there is nothing I know that they do not know already. Ticketing? Sure, I have a framework in my head for how the forthcoming ticketing reform to be proposed by the European Commission ought to work, but there is nothing I know here that ticketing platforms do not already understand. Individual international lines that do not work? OK, I know where these lines are and what the problems might be, and I might know the politics, but I am not a traffic planner or economist to make the detailed case for re-opening a track or re-starting a service. I am a generalist in a sector that needs specific knowledge and qualifications, neither of which I have.

I think the commentary of so many railway people on LinkedIn (always expressed with boundless confidence) and the railway trade press (that tends to always over-state the good news) does not really help either. I can see through some of this over-selling and over-hyping in the industry, but you do not make friends by calling that out. You do not bite the hand that feeds you.

That then leads me to the only possible way forward I can think of: I could write a weekly paid subscription international railway newsletter, and for a low price of around €5 a month (so €1.25 an issue), meaning it could have a readership wider than the rail industry – it would suit regular rail travellers, as well as some people within the sector. That price point is low enough, and the commitment from subscribers limited enough, to mean it could work. It also means I keep expectations at a level I can manage – even Groucho could see himself subscribing to that. Were I to get 100 paid subscribers (about 12% of my existing email list), and hence €500 gross income per month, that means I would have my monthly costs of living covered.

So do let me know – is this viable? Would you subscribe at that price point? And if it is not, what else would be viable?

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Groucho Marx in Copacabana1947 Private collection – United ArtistsCC BY-SA 4.0